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Tuesday, March 18, 2014

One of those days

I am having one of those days. You know the kind. I just want to bury myself in chocolate ice cream. One small problem: the freezer door was left ajar the whole day, so we now have ice cream soup :-/

The spoiled ice cream was just the icing on top of the cake. Today was a friend's funeral... really, very sad. She was 33 years old, and lost her 11 month battle with leukemia. It is hard to see her boyfriend, John's best friend, deal with the loss.

I got home from the funeral, and just wanted to curl up on the couch (with some ice cream... dammit, still pissed). I noticed a box on my front porch. I forgot that our meds order was coming soon. I opened it up to find three more boxes of Endometrin and a box of Metrogel. Wait a minute, I didn't know my nurse ordered these for us!!! We have more than enough already in my house, we don't need these!! I don't want Endometrin to begin with... now I have six effing boxes of the stuff.

Augh, so I put my pajamas on, and figured, fine, just get to the couch and ice cream. Then realized that wasn't going to happen, and the tears started to flow. Stupid, I know.

Whatever, I am pretty sure I'm PMSing in some way or another. I've been spotting and cramping all day... my nurse said I may or may not bleed after coming off the pill. I just hate this all.

I have my baseline appointment tomorrow morning, but the mood I'm in right now, I could care less. I am just having one of those days. Ya know?


  1. I'm so, so sorry to hear about your friend. It is so hard to lose someone so young. ((Hugs))

    1. Thank you, PackerFan... it's just so senseless. She was so young, and it's so hard to see our friend, her boyfriend, so broken up. He prepared a eulogy which he read at the cemetery, and we were all in tears. My heart breaks just thinking about it.

  2. Oh Cici, I'm so sorry about the loss of your friend. It's never easy, but it's always a little extra hard when it's someone so young, with so much life left to live. I'll be thinking about you and sending lots of love your way <3 <3 <3

    1. I wish you were within arms reach right now. I think we could all use a hug... Life is so unfair.